Hi Friends,
Yesterday marked nine months since losing Randy to cancer. I dread the 25th of each month, but yesterday was a particularly difficult day. So, I decided to get out my notebook and pen and write to help let the emotion out. The following poem is the result of that process. I hope it is a help to someone else out there who is shattered and broken at the moment. I know it may not feel like it, but winter is only a season my friend and spring is coming! Remember we can't let our feelings dictate our direction, we must choose to believe what is true and know that our feelings will eventually follow.
By Kelly Neff, February 25, 2019
The pain inside is so great
I feel like I'm being crushed
By a thousand-pound weight
My heart aches as the tears flow
I feel weak inside
As my fears grow
I cry and cry until
I feel like I can't breathe
When it's all poured out and I am still
It's then He whispers, “remember what you believe”
Fear, Insecurity, and Guilt - they do not come from Me
When your mind is filled with doubt
Choose to trust Me and you will see
These lies are just tools to keep you in chains
They cause you to question My character
In the depths of your pain
These lies are crafty in their design
They desire to turn you against me
So, recognize them as warning signs
If you seek Me, you will find
I love you more than you'll ever know
But there’s a battle being waged for your mind
It rages day and night
You see, the lies know
That if you listen to them
You give them the power to control where you go
But think on what's true, noble, right, and pure
I am the One who's already set you free
Don't fall prey to the hunter’s lure
He prowls around day by day
Minute by minute, hour by hour
It’s sport to him, a game he plays
Watching and waiting on someone to devour
I have given you keys
To demolish prison doors
To simply believe is not enough to be free
You must put the key in and turn to unlock
Don’t hesitate, do it quickly my friend
When your captor finds out he will try to block
Your attempt to get out
Then fears flood your mind
And lies begin to shout
They grow louder and louder as they seek to win
The battle of your mind
To control you from within
It is not easy, but it can be done
You have the power to take thoughts captive
Because the battle has already been fought and won!
The liar says I don't want you to have fun and if I were good, why would I allow you to feel pain?
Don’t you know how much I love you? I have come to set you free!
To give you abundant life, not a mere existence filled with shame
If you look in My book it is plain to see
I give you clear instruction
on life’s difficulties
I promise to never leave you and I show you how to chart
Your course to avoid pitfalls and pain
Which the enemy uses to keep us apart
I love you so much I’ve given you the freedom to choose me… or not
My desire is that all would choose Me
Oh, how my heart aches over those who do not!
Listen to me dear one… I want to do immeasurably more for you than you can ever ask or imagine!
When you get caught up asking why I would allow such pain
Keep walking toward Me my child, I promise to turn your mourning into joy
Make beauty from your ashes, and give you purpose through your pain
I never promise that things won't get broken
I am an artist, a master carpenter, I can restore all things
Because My words have power when they are spoken
When things are shattered to pieces, beyond repair, sure...
I know it looks like a mess
But I can make them new and better than before
Come to me all who are weary and broken and I will give you peace and rest
~Blessings to all of the other cracked pots who are shattered and broken out there, may you find peace and rest!
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